i am so sensitive to his name now that my hair stands when someone mentions his name. my heart raced. my expression changes instantly. bad. haiz. i guess i seriously can never look someone in e eye for long. not tat i have done sth wrong but i guess i am easily distracted. in addition to that, i feel insecure i guess... lookin into someone's eyes, i am afraid that they will discover sth in me that i may not even noe.. perhaps he was one of those i dare to look into his eyes..even after e break up, i dun find it scary to look him in e eye..instead it seems more like he's afraid to look me in eye. sometimes i wonder, would he and me meet ever again after graduation? would he and me, perhaps still end up together? these questions perhaps are one of those questions ppl will think about when e relationship was broken.. actually i am rather amazed at how fast guys changes. really. one minute they say they like you. the nxt minute u discover the fact tat they are with someone else. are all guys this way? i hope not. the fact tt guys are able to forget someone ever so quickly shocked me.. there are jus so many examples ard me that i am really startin to be convinced that relationships nv last. marriages are now NOT a symbol of eternal LOVE. its jus a symbol of an ETERNAL PROMISE OF RESPONSIBILITY. marriage is jus sth ppl get together n bring up kids. do they ever still love each other in times to come? very rarely. perhaps one in about 1000? i seriously am confused... sometimes it may seem u really love this someone deeply but is it really so? or is it jus the secure feeling of familarity that makes u feel attached to this person instead of truly loving them? so can i really say i love him deep enuff till i find it so hard to forget him? i dunno. but i guess mebbe..its really e feelin of familarity tt makes me feel so attached to him. my life once revolved ard him. everything is jus bout him. even the orientation. is it time i put down e stuff n create new memories instead of re-living the past ones? yea. i guess so. i'll try. if i can get pass these and i got past e devasted post relationship blues, mebbe i'll get pass this again... right? as long as i hang on right?? as teresa have suggested i shud go drink some orange juice n get a grip n smile n try my best again. To Bai: i'll hang on. ;)
NaMe: WeiNing
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