it feels terrible to have the happy memories race thru ya mind all at once. you smile to yourself as you recall those happy moments. you cry after realizin things wun be the same and memories are memories only... its always nice to live in memories, it always felt better to be in self pity, cryin seems to make one feel better all the time...sometimes i really do wonder if i have moved on. the memories rushes back so quickly and yet vanishes without a trace in e nxt sec. does this mean that i am still unable to let go? i seriously cannot deny the fact that the orientation stuff brings back more memories den ever..sometimes i feel so terrible inside till i wish to withdraw from ogl...but eventually i'll convince myself not to do so and have fun there which i did i think... but it really hurts. the memories really makes me feel terrible on e inside. sittin at the atrium, preparing e placards and stuff..reminds me of the first time i did sth sweet for him. cheerin reminds me of him as my ohl. the camp reminds me of e time he gave me his windbreaker for e camp. the dance reminds of my dance wit him. too much memories. too much pain. when u're all alone, is it normal to have e tendency to have the tot, i wish he was by my side now.. is it normal? with the full knowledge tat we are not we used to be? i noe he had perfectly moved on wit his life and more den happy wit his life. why i am still living in such a way? between e two of us, am i the only one who have flashback of our memories? would he think of the stuff we used to do together when he sees the familiar places? too many questions goes unanswered. i am lost. i really wanna find out yet i dun at e same time. wad's wrong wit me? gosh. this is real pathetic.
NaMe: WeiNing
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NiCks: MianBao;Chicken Little
SkOoL: MJC *currently*
LoVes: Family;Friends;Food;05A301;Dancing
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