To Bai: thanks gal... for ya encouragement and stuff.. yea.. =D made me feel so touched.. hee.. today went back to skool again for preparin e orientation stuff.. kinda fun and quite crazy..but i could not get too hyped up today n i dunno why.. went back home at ard 7plus.. on e same bus as him.. and had to go back the same route as him.. (did i mention that he and i had e same shoe bag? dunno if its his but saw him carry it durin e recee..maybe tat was wad made me sick? ha.) the feelin was real terrible.. it din help that FREAKY actually said sth to him that he shud be a gentleman and send me home. what e fuck. seriously, wad right does he fuckin have to tease me?! i dun mind e others cos AT LEAST they have sth call a LIMIT! wad e fuck. i seriously could have kicked his hell of a FREAKY ass. fuck. right..pardon e language.. but in anyway it is, the route back home made me wanna cry but none came out. he was jus so beside. so near but far at e same time. it was so awkward. my ears cant help but turn red, luckily its night time le.. he offered to send me home, i cant deny i was surprised...but i rejected. cos i noe if i agreed i could have really weeped and say some stupid stuff to him which i seriously wun wan it to happen.. as i walked the short route back home, it felt like ages man.. the memories flashed back..and for the first time, they stayed. perhaps it had been so long that he and me took e same path back together, now its all back again. i really feel terrible man. shud i really quit it? i really wanna have a plain old simple life.. i love bein ogl but e memories are too much to bear. havin to be all smiles when ppl mention him. couldn't help but wonder if they knew bout stuff bet. me and him. sadly, my emotions are usually written on my face and i end up havin to hide somewhere or run off. why is it when i always feel all e better, things jus get worse??? sometimes i wish i could really be invisible. i wish i have short term memory. i wish i'll get a concussion n could remember everythin except him. i wish its all a dream. i wish it was never e way it was. sometimes it really did felt like a dream. like it was a sweet dream tt turned nightmarish..but deep down, i noe its not. i wish i am non-existent.
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