Sometimes i laugh at his ridiculous lies. wad's the point of saying all those lies?? lies like "i dun look at gals one.." pur-lease..but funnily i actually believed his lies. so i ended laughin at my own stupidity. BUT now, i realise tat i shud not believe anyone readily. i believed i made a wrong choice in choosin to love someone like him. but there's not much i can do bout it so i've decided to move on and now i finally feel truly happier. =D and i believe i would find someone better and more worthy for me to treat him well and all..and i believe Bai will also find a guy much worthy of her. =D I will love again. "Love like i was never hurt before." =D (read this from andy's blog)
i am starting to have this tot tat i haven been comin online is cos i din wanna see HIM online. cos whenever i see his nick appear on MSN i have this weird feeling like someone jus squeezed my stomach and make me feel sick. but after 5 secs, the feelin was gone. ha. is it good to be this way??? oh well. =D ppl who dunno henry have this misconception tat i am dating henry OR i like henry. wad's wrong wit them? hmm.
Amazingly, i can never get myself to be angry with wadever jeph said. even tho she say me 'princess'-like like till i super spoilt brat and forced her to clean her toilet when i insisted to go her hse to dye my hair... ha.
I've jus realised that 2005 is gonna end soon and my JC2 yr will start very very soon. i am rather worried for my A's now cos i am getting lazier these days. haha. since 2005 is gonna end and new year is comin, its really time that i shud reflect on my past yr. 2005 had really been a fruitful year. been thru a lot and learnt a lot. for the first time in my life i studied hard. for the first time in my life i actually got into the skool of my choice and the course of my choice. for the first time in my life i really feel tat i am surrounded by wonderful ppl. for the first time in my life i came to noe tat true buddies need not be in constant contact. and one of the most significant event of my life this year would be gettin to noe HIM and fallin in love with him and the hurt of losing someone i tot i would last forever with and married to. yes indeed it is childish to think tt i was going to marry a guy at the age of 17 years old but i was blinded by my love/ liking of him. i refuse to believe the obvious signs tat he was leaving me. i chose to believe him. i chose to believe his words. he said he dun look at gals and i believed. he said he wun break up with me and i believed. he said he loved me and i believed. for the first time i trusted a guy totally. and so for the first time i got hurt deep. and from all these i learnt valuable lessons and i've changed from it. i've learnt not to trust guys totally. i've learnt tat its impossible to love someone truly. i've learnt tat guys dun stay devoted for a lifetime. i've seen tat life is really unpredictable. no one knows wad's gonna happen the next sec. BUT thru all these, i've gained more den wad i lost. i've made real good frens and manage to be stronger after goin thru all these. i've learnt to stop myself from crying. and from all these i befriended two of the most wonderful teachers in the world- MR ROBIN HON ( Hon Hon) and Ms Chen Zhiling. i simply love them. =D without them i dunno who i can turn to. they gave me support like a parent would and talked to me like my good buddies would and i really thank them for it. and amist all these, my frens showed me concern and i really love them for it as well. hee. and amazingly i've grown to like PINK. haha. and still love punk rock as much. oh well. =D some ppl may say, " hey, u merely jus fallen out of love. no need to make it like such a big deal as if u had gained a world of stuff from it. " but i really feel tat i did. actually the most important thing bout this whole year : It's like i took my first step to true adulthood. Being the youngest in my family, i dun deny i've been spoilt and rather protected by my parents and even my sister who is onli like 1 year older, but thru this year's events i think i did learn impt lessons ba. =D so yea. Hope i can handle things better from now on. OH. and also for the first time in my life i've learnt tat Teresa actually noe how to take care of ppl and show a teenie bit of concern. wahahaha. =P
CONGRATULATE ME. someone told me tat he found me chubby. its really been a long time since i heard tat word. ppl ard me this yr had been kind to use words such as prosperous lookin or mian bao to describe my fat face. i really HATE the word 'chubby' i dunno why i hate it but i jus do. the last time someone said i was chubby was like sec2 by tat MR YIP ZF and his soccer companions who also gave me an additional nickname- LOO which is actually " Lord/Lots of Oil " in short. wtf. apparently i broke up wit tat guy eventually. which 14 year old den could tolerate 16 year old guys callin her such a nick?!! haha. so yea. i hate to be chubby. i really shud go on a diet. BUT everytime i eat lesser and lose weight i lose at places tat are supposed to be big/fat *ahem*. does anyone noe of any methods to shed fats from e face????????? haiz.
i jus tot of sth. when i went japan and at the changi airport, i saw tis gal who actually wore a shirt and a micro mini skirt with slippers and rather bimbo lookin. apparently, to me, she's a bimbo cos no one in their right mind actually wear tat to a place tat is about 0 degree celsius to -1 or -3 degree celsius. and AMAZINGLY she was readin a real thick book which after 5 minutes, was handed to her mum. and den she started lookin at her feet: the girl: " mummy, do u have nice feet?" her mum looked at her in question. "my frens said i have nice feet. do u think i have nice feet??" her mum kept quiet and after a few more secs of observing her feet, " i think i have nice feet." she had said all tat so loudly tat several ppl ard, including myself were staring at her. i cant believe there's actually such a gal. well, after this "nice feet" issue, when she stood up, her g-string was in view of everyone and she openly tugged at her skirt. perhaps cos i'm always in a mixed skool, i was exceptionally shocked and disgusted with her actions and stuff she said. ha. and i really had to tell everyone ard me bout it. =D
finally i have time to come back and blog. haha. yeah!! orientation is gonna start soon..haha.. hmm..went to my class chalet on the 28th and stayed overnight there. ms chen came!! and we all had nice chats with haris takin charge over the pit and he was practically watchin the fire the whole night with nora and he din eat much, insisting tat he's not hungry. oh well. lots of thanks to him anyway cos w/o him, we might have taken the whole day to cook. haha. zul's gf, liyana (dun really noe how to spell) came. really pretty gal and friendly..she gave me a hug b4 she left. so sweet of her. hee. =D and for this chalet, wu hao was the only guy who stayed overnight, together with xue wen, me, nora, anting, sinyee and geckying. and we all drank tat night. after bout 4 cups of the vodka(40% alcohol) mixed with Sprite, i was tipsy and i stopped drinkin after tat. but i was high and we all could not stop laughin esp. nora, our darlin Meridian scholar. haha. wu hao was really drunk i tot cos he actually vomitted. haha. but after a while, we all were back to normal. haha. all was quite crazy la. except anting slept b4 anyone of us did n we made fun of her. haha. i like the night. =D
read van's blog. found tat one of her entry very meaningful.. its in chinese and is sth bout ppl u're supposed to seek in life and wad kinda ppl we met. i jus love her entries. always have some meaningful stuff to set me thinkin...haha. =D while on this taiwan trip, i tot bout a lot of stuff..well, actually onli durin my flights tat i tot bout stuff between me n him..the rest of the time i was too engrossed in e shoppin..haha... oh well. and i came up with the conclusion tat nxt yr, i shud begin it properly n not get bothered bout stuff on him nor shed a tear for him. i realise tat in many ways me and him are not suited for each other. i like cleanliness and neatness. i like to buy stuff. i like to watch movies. i like to eat fast food. i like bein treated like a kid. BUT for him, he strongly discouraged me to buy too much stuff. i dun deny i 'over-buy' sometimes...but i do take note of my own budget. in anyway, he din understand tat. i may be dependent on him, but i still noe how to take care of myself..but i guess he preferred ppl who are more independent. oh well. there are jus too many differences. but i tot in a relationship, u shud accept one as they are and love everything bout them? i asked myself on the plane, if he REALLY found someone new and is attached, would i be angry? honestly, i think i would feel uncomfortable, but not angry le... cos after all, i cant deny tat i am starting to believe tat i dun love him anymore. yes, i admit i do still miss him. i admit i still have hopes that things wun turn out fine n we would be together again. BUT there are jus too much mistrust and misunderstandings and differences between me and him. mebbe as he like, me and him shud onli be purely frens. not good frens. not buddies. jus purely frens. those that u say hi to sometimes but not everytime. nvm le. i guess things are jus meant to be. and He is jus one of those that i met in my life and once loved which is not tat bad ba. =D
yeah!! back from taiwan..in another two days' time, i'll be goin off to japan. haha. bought tons of stuff in taiwan. earrings, necklaces, belts ( 3 of it ) , Nike shoes, skirt, a top, tons of socks, hair bands and pins, and food.............. hahaha... had such a great time shoppin there!! and for the first time, i wore skirts throughout my hol trip. and i ate so much there!!! and i drove the kinda car u drive on golf course...and i drove it right thru the bushes after a sharp turn WHICH goes to show that i shud really have second tots on gettin a drivin licence. haha. there are a lot of nice stuff on SQ too... haha. and i made a few frens durin the trip too!! haha. the onli bad things are some of the hotels and the locals. the guides were okay. but got one keep talkin bout taiwan's politics which i see no point in tellin me...haha.. i cant wait for my trip to japan!! mebbe can buy some more stuff...BUT most prob more expensive... so those who wanna a gift from me, will most prob get some of the local food. haha. =P but those food aint cheap too.... about 20 plus for a box of this green bean biscuits...haha..
i'm just going to enjoy my holiday. i dun care le. i miss my frens................. i miss 05A301, i miss all my darling buddies now... henry, shuning, adeline, ruiqi, bai and so many more....... and i miss goin back to skool... and i miss paintin banners...and dancing the mass dances... hai. i realise i miss them a lot especially at times like now. oh well. gotta wake up at 4am tml. =D *feel so much better after henry cheered me up wit his Char Siew joke..hee. =D *
i am freakin tired man. not as in physically tired. but can say that its mentally strained. by tons of stuff. by that HIM in my skool. by that HIM in my sec skool. by some of my frens. by homework which i haven done yet. and all these happily jus crash on me b4 my holiday trip. wtf. cant i freakin hell be given a chance to relax and really use this time to freakin forget him???? i'm really tired le.
it din matter whether he (not tat HIM) vomit blood or not... i noe he's unwell and all now..and i really do care for him as a fren and would LOVE to continue treating him like a buddy and all..but his constant messages of " i'll miss you.." and stuff like tat makes me feel real awful..even angry.. for the past year, i've been tolerating such messages and replyin it...but now, i've altogether stopped replying such messages. he told me his operation last yr caused him to have a blood clot now..(tho i din really ask where the clot was, but i'm rather sure it wun be in e brain..) so he msged me tellin me dun worry bout him and stuff... (but i still worry for him as a fren anyway) and he also deliberately set his operation on e blood clot on the days which i would be abroad to stop me from worryin..BUT he just messaged me, a day b4 i go abroad, tellin me he vomitted blood and all and is giddy and stuff... SERIOUSLY, if he really meant for me to leave this country in peace and DUN WAN ME TO WORRY LIKE HOW HE WANTED IT TO BE, he really shud not fuckin hell tell me that he's not feelin very well right?! wtf. i dun think he's so STUPID that he cant realise tt by tellin ppl such stuff he'll make anyone worry. fuck. i've tolerated all his nonsense on " i still like you and can we get back together?" crap long enuff. i am rather sure i've made it clear to him TONS of times. mebbe i really shud stop talkin to him altogether. i've tried bein mean to him verbally. i've tried bein nice. BUT i've never totally ignore him. i still cared as a fren shud. but why is the fuckin hell he cant understand? is there any part of my english that he fuckin hell just wun understand?! gosh. a year has passed and he's still as childish as ever. askin me to take care yet at the same time tellin me the dangerous stuff he does. and the fuckin hell that he continued to smoke. which i had told him fuckin loads of time. one day man. i swear i'm gonna scream at him. BUT for now, i'll swallow it all down and continue be a nice fren to him. seriously, i doubt i was ever this fake or mean to a guy. i dun mean to. and i really wanna treat him as my fren. but he jus wun fuckin understand my term of a FREN. haiz. hell. i'm still worried for him. :(
Something tat vanessa had done in her blog n now its my turn :D 5 weird things about me: 1. i like to suck on my thumb/ sing to myself in bed.
2. i like to talk to my soft toys.
3. i blog mentally when i am alone on my way home.
4. i like the smell of Bugis MRT station.
5. i like to pretend that i am a rock concert. next to do this: 1. Baizura
2. Ngaim
3. Adrian
4. Teresa/ Jeph (tho i noe she most prob wun do it)
5. i dunno who can be on e list. Adeline? i dun really consider myself weird. really. mebbe jus a teenie bit. ( i onli think too much and have a slight split personality i guess.) ha.
Good Charlotte's improvement can be noted significantly in each and every of their album man... Good Charlotte Rocks. =D
THE PICTURES WE TOOK AT ORCHARD YESTERDAY NIGHT
wee..finally after somewhat like ages to me, i can blog again. went out wit henry ystd to watch Saw 2 at Prince (e place where meridians were forced to watch Star Wars this year) and its damn ulu ( 3/4 of the theater is empty n the number of gals in e cinema wun exceed FOUR) and the air con apparently wasnt switched on, and after the movie, the lights were still off. so i came to one conclusion. not onli is the movie PATHETIC, but the place as well. the only thing good bout the building there --> i found cheap earrings and of cos GOOD CHARLOTTE'S FIRST ALBUM!! but it came together with the second one in a box and it cost me onli $17.90!!! cool right!! tat's one of the best deals i came across.. haha.. after which i went to meet ruiqi to go shoppin. (as usual) and den she gave me a nail polish. and we went to shop at far east where qi bought a belt and i bought eh.. my bikini. and my mum's. haha. for wad? for the sake of going to the hot springs in taiwan and japan. haha. dumb right? spending near 40 plus bucks for the sake of going for hot springs.. (tho u actually have the choice of going to the ones where u're supposed to be naked but i'm too shy u see.. haha) den after which qi and me head down to topshop. where i bought my new top! and we went to mango where i bought ruiqi's christmas prezzie. haha. in between all these, we took a few pix with the christmas deco with my pathetic camera phone's night shots... haha.. put it simply. i had my share of great fun ystd! and yinglin's fren is quite cute too! haha. =P
realised tat i keep falling sick. aint a good sign. wad a pathetic health i have. seriously, i am starting to believe i'll die young. ha.
bought my adidas jacket today. my sis insisted to buy the orange one... oh well. so i was supposed to watch chicken little with my sis today but she was late so din manage to catch the movie...haiz.. had sushi for lunch and den head back home...a rather boring day i guess... except observations made at the orchard mrt station today was rather interesting.. noticed a gal who was lookin for models or sth like tat. her taste was rather unique i must say. the guys she approached were guys tat are considered somewhat average lookin..some nerdy ones too. but its always hard to say bout photos since ppl look different in photos...hee. caught a flu from my mum. bad. have to go abroad in a week, having a bad cold aint really sth good man.
NaMe: WeiNing
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NiCks: MianBao;Chicken Little
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